Struggling to fall asleep

Tossing, turning

All of the sudden you appear,

Your strength, care and safety

Wrapped around me

Held me close

As I tilt my head up, Eyes wondering

Waiting to see your beautiful, innocent brown stare.

Muscles tense, twitch, scream

No. your not here, it was never real

All a dream, her?

Its not supposed to be me

It never has been.

I will never feel, the way we did.